My Progress

As you may know I have MANY rituals. But recently I have been working to shorten that list, and to make my life a whole lot less stressful. First, I talk a lot about my urge to gag myself, and to brush my teeth three million times until my mind tells me I can stop. Well, ladies and gentlemen I am proud to announce that I am beginning to break that ritual. Two nights in a row I have went not only without gagging myself, but without brushing my teeth over one time. I think I'm a miracle worker.😉😂Look at lil' ol' me being all positive. Anyway, I also have the nightly urge to gobble up any food in sight, even though I actually am not hungry at all. My mind just tells me I am going to starve to death if I don't eat, so I give in to these thoughts and eat my little heart out. But recently I have come to terms with the fact that the thought I am going to starve to death is just a big fat lie. I mean do I really think I am actually going to die of starvation when I had a perfectly filling dinner? I thought about this last night and for the first time I had only one snack before bed! I am so proud to say that on this very day of August 1st I am alive. I didn't starve to death! The entire point of this entry is I guess just to show my progress and how far I have come from the beginning of this joirney. I definetly would say that I am sailing down a smooth road to recovery.