No Exceptions

I've learned that it's not safe to get attached to people, for they seem to always leave. But I did it. I got attached, and I feel that these people are going to disappear out of my life and I am no longer going to get that sense of happiness. This is the feeling that causes me pain, and right now I hate myself for getting attached to them. I never open myself up to those I have not been born and raised with. This time though I made an exception, and I feel it crumbling right in front of me. I don't want to go down that deep dark hole again. I want them to stay for good.

I am so proud of myself! My parents are coming back today from their trip, and I can officially say that I have made it. I honestly did not think I would be able to survive this time without my mom. But I was wrong. I made it, and along the way I learned a lot about myself and what I am capable of. I have finally realized that I am stronger than my anxiety. I was able to put my rituals on hold, and stay strong even when I felt low. My love for others has also grown so much, and I feel that I have found a brighter side to life. It is amazing what a little time away from your everyday life can teach you. For me it taught me who I really am.